The power of words

It's amazing how a few words can comfort you completely. How words can ruin our day or make it the best day of your life. Last night, talking made me happy and content after a week of worrying. It's so amazing. Now I am ready to start my summer of amazingness. Ready to have an amazing time.

mussmiss

Bye bye school. After 2 blocks, 1 exam, it'll be all over. I'll no longer wake up at horrid hours. No longer waste my precious life in a jail. 2 months of freedom. An amazing summer with the people I love. My total happiness. So many memories are going to be made. So many friendships are going to grow. I can't wait!!!!!

Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now. -BOB

During hard stressful times in my life, I sit outside my bedroom window and watch the stars. Wishing that I could change something, do something with purpose. Be someone. I feel so small under the night sky, just some human being in the world. Thats what I like. Theres too much focus on me. People expect things from me that I cant do. They expect me to be a person that I'm not. Always happy. Always cheery. But they need to understand that thats not me. I have my sad moments. My feelings get hurt. I hurt. So for now I just sit under these stars wishing for a chance.

Change

It sucks when you find out that things are going to change. That what you know as now will never be the same. Even though I am going to miss the life I have now, maybe the future is for the good. Its good for others, thats all that matters. I wish him the best, but I'm going to miss him lots.
So now my decision is whether or not I can stay when I'm never going to see.
I love you,
I miss you,
Goodbye

Just keep swimming...

Just like the song that Dory sings in finding nemo, just keep swimming is what is keeping me going through school this week. Summer is in less than a week and yet school doesn't seem to understand that. New ideas are being taught on the same week as the exam. My mind can't handle that. So I just keep singing, just keep swimming.

Alone in a Huge House

I've always said that I could NEVER live in a huge house. I grew up in a rather decent size house and when I was ever alone in it, I would be terrified. I can't stand being alone. It's a huge fear of mine. To imagine having that lonesome feeling everyday is horrible. I need people. And because of that, I am here for people who need me. It's a win win situation.

Ignorance is ALWAYS bliss

At points in my life, such as now, I wish soooo much that I was ignorant of everything bad. I have this issue with thinking about what could be happening instead of enjoying what is happening. Paranoia enters the picture, and now IM GOING INSANE! I can't enjoy the life I have right now because I am always wanting things to be my way, but refuse to do something about it...nothings ever going to change. If only I could be oblivious for a while.