Experience

Am I experienced?
Well in what category?
School: You betcha. I've been going to school for over 12 years now.
Love: NO WAY! I have only loved one person. Which I am perfectly ok with. I don't need to fall in love often.
Work: Nope. Which is my problem because everyone is looking for experience, yet I have none. How am I suppose to get a job?

In the comforts of your arms

In the comforts of your arms I rest.
My mind stops, my worries cease.
In the comforts of your arms I sleep.
With peaceful thoughts and dreams a plenty.
In the comforts of your arms I stay,
never wishing to leave that home.

In the look of your eyes I see
the love that always is expressed.
In the look of your eyes I stare
surprised at the passion I catch.
In the look of your eyes I stay,
never wishing to leave that sight.

In the touch of your hands I feel
as if my world is now complete.
In the touch of your hands I stop
and memorize the feeling so deep.
In the touch of your hands I stay,
never wishing to leave that feeling.

In the feel of your kiss I understand
why you say all those words to me.
In the feel of your kiss I find
the truth in your hearts desires.
In the feel of your kiss I stay,
never wishing to leave that love.

In the glow of your smile I bathe,
your happiness turns to mine.
In the glow of your smile I hope
to always be the one to cause.
In the glow of your smile i stay,
never wishing to leave that light.

In the depths of my heart you live,
marking permanently forever.
In the depths of my heart you grow,
every word and expression absorbed.
In the depths of my heart you stay,
no matter what happens you'll always be there.

Words from the Past

Within my heart, I felt that I needed that feeling. The feeling that I had read so many times in books. I believe that I would do anything to get it. The way it works is so precious and rare that few have actually experienced the joy it gives to you. My adventure finding this feeling. The feeling of love.
You could say that I was loved. I had a family that cared about me, but that type of love was not what I was looking for. My friends loved me, nor was that what I was looking for. You could say that I was looking for a fairytale love, true love or love at first sight. Some think that this does not exist, but I truly believe that it does. The fact that I only read it in books and I have yet to see it real life might be a problem. I might not have looked hard enough, which I am trying to convince myself. I have a few months left in school and to prove myself right, I am going to find examples of this love I have read of. Today, April 17th 2008, I begin my search.

Seriously?

Seriously?
Is it that hard to understand?
Begging to hang out.
Giving nicknames.
Saying I luv you.
When does it become apparent that maybe you went too far.
Or do you just not care?
Are you that selfish that you could care less if you are crossing a line?
Well I guess you are.
You have to have every guy after you.
Have to have a guy that is taken?
Seriously?
Open your eyes.
Use your common sense. Your morals.
Maybe if you thought about it instead of just enjoying doing whatever you like,
you'd understand that you are wrong.
For the first time in your life.
And you are just making it worse. Making fights. Making hate.
You are hurting your so called best friend.
For your own good.
Way to be a friend.
Seriously?

Don't Sweat the Little Things

I have discovered a problem. With me. I sweat the little things.
I have not been able to enjoy the life I have because I am sweating the little things.
I worry about things too.
What are they saying?
What if everyone finds out?
Why can I not trust her?
Why does he choose her over me?
Why? Why? WHY?
I have so many questions yet I know that half of them I will never have answered.
Maybe if I stop worrying. I cannot control anyones decisions. What happens will happen. I have no control over fate.
There's my problem. Especially since I like to be in control.
So I guess I need to stop sweating the little things.
I just wish everything will just happen and not lead up to a big event.
I know what is going to happen. Or what is not. Depending on the decision.
I just wish it would happen already.

A Wet, Cold, Amazing Day!

Today was I VERY good day. School was canceled because our school district thinks about the worse case scenario. So I was stuck at home ALL day, but luckily, Erik decided to come bring me soup and hang out with me the whole day. I love relaxing with him, watching a movie, and enjoying being with each other. So I managed to get nothing productive done, except apply for another job, and I am proud of my laziness. I needed this so that my mind could forget about all the stress of exams. So now with a 2 hour delay of school tomorrow, I shall get extra sleep and wake up refreshed and ready. Today was a good day.

What is a girlfriend?

So I looked up the definition of a girlfriend, on Urban Dictionary of course.
Girlfriend:the one person you can really share everything with and who will be there through the good, the bad and the fucking excellent - notjust significant other, but essential.

Now, I have decided to evaluate my abilities of being a good girlfriend based on this definition.
Can you really share everything with me?
-Well I sure hope that you can. I mean, I will listen to everything you say. I share everything, basically, about myself with you. I hope that you share everything about you with me. Sure, we still have lots to learn about each other, but hopefully we will have the time to do that.
-Will I be there through the good, the bad, and the fucking excellent? Well haven't I been there for you through all of that. There hasn't been much bad, only a few times, but no matter what, even if we break up, I will be there for you.
Am I not just significant but essential?
-Well you are to me, so I sure hope that I am to you.

Now you ask the question: What is a boyfriend?
a great guy who make you feel good bout urself... a protector, and ur best friend
Example:keep ur hands off my boyfriend! he's mine! :)